Just about everyone making everything worse.

Okay so thers person or pplz they don't givva right nut about me and they tlk about me but then when im around im a effin goddess, i hate it they talk about me sooo much, " she's jelous were so close, she's jelus cuz we went out, she doesnt like me becuz i wont hang out with her, she's so frikin immature, she needs to think before she says, she needs to keep A LOT of thoughts in her head. She talks so freakin much " Ect. This makes Me mad... When half of the class is talking then you yell at the nearist person " YOU GUYS REALLY? SHUT UP GOD" then when they talk when its like silence "Calm down, you do it alllll the time" Ugh. Eff Yu Man. Yu dont even caare about me. why do you talk to me..? im not rich, popular, beautiful, Why? is it just for the thrill of torture, is it that im so easy to crush, i take in what EVERYONE says so its OKAY to take your anger out on me the one who's just trying to be happy. I really try not to be upset i try to put on a smile but underneath that akward laugh is a girl wishing she could fit in, trying to change so i dont hurt anyone so i wont, annoy anyone so yes to servive in this world you have to be 2-faced, you have to put on atleast one stupid fake smile.