My Life

My life is very confusing. Not very interesting. Not much going on i have a mother that can some times be stubborn and a dad that can yell about any thing, but not abusive at all. I think hes strong if he can hold in all that anger and not hurt anyone. i would say im a daddys girl. I think my moms selfish i think she only cares about herself and she only shops for herself when we go shopping. she complains about not having any money then she goes out and buys 200$ shoes. well i dont hate her because she brought me into this world but i really dont care it doesnt mean she needs to hold that aginst me. but we do have our moments i guess. i really try to ignore but im a drama queen. well anyways i hate grammer i cant spell im not very good at anything on the outside i try to be a ball of joy but on the inside im a crushed teen hoping for more. hoping for someone i can trust someone i can tell everything and can trust them not to tell anyone. People call me annoying say im to happy and they cant handle it i dont want to change for anyone but i find myself trying to just to impress someone, just to meet someone new and be less hated. im a sensitive girl anything ANYONE says will get to me and make me think about it 24.7 i end up emberassing my self one way or another. everyone says high school is supposed to be fun but i dont know ill see. Everyone here has already lost their first kiss or what ever. im to scared i think im to scared to grow up but the futures comming and i need to become an adult. I hate the way i look i would give anything to loose weight but im i give up. im only 13 and im already concidering geting lypo. i admit i have a lot of good friends but not a best friend one you want, like in a movies..yes i know most of the things in movies most likely wont come true but it doesnt hurt to try.